I feel restless again. Alien the evil spirit is trying to use me as a vassal vessel and I don’t want him to succeed. I feel a slight urge to harm myself to bleed him out but it didn’t work the last time, he’s been with me for years so how do I think I’d get rid of him? My husband had to calm me down and say he will beat Alien up and that he’s here for me. Sweet man I love him so much and I don’t want anything bad to happen, Alien mustn’t use me or hurt my husband. Rather hurt me.
I have a weird cruel streak - in my childhood I abused my one goldfish and I killed a mouse my cat caught. Both gave me pleasure to hurt. When I saw squirrels at my previous house in 2019, I had strong urge to kill it. Small furry things. Not cats or birds I love them, and dogs too. Just small things. I don’t know why I’m so heartless!
You see? Alien is trying to take me over… I’m so helpless…I’m so glad I’m seeing my pdoc in two days!!
Glad I have Seroquel to take! It’s starting to calm me, sweet pill, kind pill love it. Sleeeep…it’s 23:33 here now.