Last time I made an attempt to die, I had taken 33mg benzos. It was a sunny day, and voices had told me that it was a beautiful day to die
Are you ok? Are you at the hospital?
No, I am at home.
How are you feeling?
Honestly I feel like ■■■■. You?
Voices say that I should die. I’m in turmoil
“you’re worthless and pathetic”
I feel like ■■■■ too. I still believe that the police are after me.
Sorry to hear that. Can’t you tell your voices to fack off?
I wish that would work but it doesn’t
I’ve done the same thing. I took 28 Atavans and 13 Klonopins. I don’t know if they pumped my stomach. After the emergency room they took me to a mental health clinic, and I slept it off for a couple of days. I wish I could say that was the last time I abused a mind altering chemical, but I still had some of that in me. But it has been four years since I last did any mind altering drug or alcohol.
I should call my psychiatrist but today he is off the office. Maybe tomorrow
Voices say that my death will benefit people
Go to the ER if you are suicidal
Are you on antidepressant?
I went on 5htp and increased klonopin to 2mg from 1mg. Seems to help so far.
Yes, on big dose of antidepressant .
I can’t go, unfortunately. It’s too far from here but there’s no one to drive me
I’m sorry Om, hang on.
This reminds me of Solar deities.
I’m sorry. I’m here for you.
Hang in there. Don’t give into the voices, or listen to what they say, they are not your friend. Is it a option to try other meds? Maybe there is something that can take the edge off your voices so you are able to get calm? I hope so, just remember there are always options and new things to try. Don’t resign, things can get better even if it is hard to believe sometimes.