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Stuck in a rut

#1

am i depress? i constantly have negative thoughts, as i go to work, i dont want to try to lose weight, i just dont take initiative to do anything in my life…i live with my parents, i have a lisence and a job, but i dont make enough money to move out or get a car, generally move on with my life…i am taking ziprasidone 60mg once a day…a bunch of other pills, i am on an antidepressent but i dont think that is enough…i am lonely, even though i have friends that i dont see but talk to online…everyday…i dont want to try and get a girlfriend because i dont think i am ready for that just yet…i think im bipolar too as sometimes i am a dick, and sometimes i turn around and apologise and feel bad about what i said…i have friends that i see at the social club when im working, but i dont take the initiative to meet them outside the club, and hangout, im stuck on this online ■■■■. i never tell my psychiatrist or doctor, because i am not comfortable showing my feeling with anyone…i keep everything bottled inside most of the time…i am not very social, most of the time i am quiet…unless with friends…

#2

Hey man, your not alone. Im in the same boat. Except I am also jobless. Things can get worse things can get better. Loneliness is the real killer. I dont even like sex, but damn being alone is so boring and difficult.

#3

hey you have a classic case of “being to hard on yourself” you have a job and friends count your blessings there and you dont really want to have the whole heap of bills that come with owning your own house anyway grrr im a peasant lol

#4

Good call on no girlfriend. That is definitely not something you should step into if you aren’t ready.

#5

It could be worse. You could be lonely, no job, on disability, and no social skills to speak of - like me.