I just can’t cope. Since I found out about my diagnosis I’ve been have way more symptoms than before. I think it’s triggered everything to come back because my mood was low anyway when I found out and the mixture of the two just messed me up. For the last three days I’ve been hallucinating- voices and visuals. The only thing that seems to help is taking more of my meds but it’s making me soooo tired and no motivation and just spacey. Tried to go to emergency doctor yesterday but it was a really long wait and I didn’t want to wait. Then I rang a helpline which sucked ass! I have an appointment with my pdoc on Tuesday. Work is just killing me right now and I feel like I’m not doing a good job and they are starting to notice, maybe I’m just being paranoid.
I’ve also been smoking loads because it’s all stressing me out so much which is bad because I quit ages ago. Two questions; do you guys ever get the voices trying to take over your body? Do you ever feel like u can’t move your body and your not controlling it? And do your pupils get huge when your psychotic?
Also the other problem is I still don’t believe the diagnosis. I think I’m making all this stuff happen by overthinking too much… anyone else have this problem? Also I have a real problem telling people my experiences, voices, delusions etc because I’m afraid of what they will think. Which makes me think I mustn’t actually have schizoaffective because if I did I wouldn’t think my experiences were abnormal, like I wouldn’t be able to tell the difference…?
It’s ok it’s hard when you get a diagnosis a lot of people struggle with coming to terms with it. It makes sense that you’re not like “yay!” It’s a hard thing to deal with.
Make sure you bring this up with your doctor it can be dangerous to take more than prescribed. I understand why you do it but I want you to be safe.
I had this problem a lot a work is it possible for you to call out for a couple of days until your pdoc appointment? Cause sometimes it’s good to step away for a day.
And to answer the questions yes voices try to take over a lot (but I have did so I’m probably a little different),
yes, I hate this feeling I’m sorry you experience it too.
and I don’t know, but I know pupils tend to dilate when a human is scared so that could be why
Well if you don’t believe the diagnosis maybe ask your doc why they chose it? It might help clear up some questions. Tell them your concerns.
It’s not uncommon to have some insight. I unfortunately struggle with the same problem at times.
the thing is trust comes with time. Maybe start off with one you think isnt too strange and ease into talking about your experiences.
I’ve been on meds for a year now but the same dose the whole time, quite a low dose. Taking a higher dose makes me exhausted. And no I don’t currently see a therapist. Trying to get one though… thanks for your reply.
@Noise I have wondered before if I could have DID because my voices are like different versions of myself. And sometimes they take over my body. I’ve never lost time though Nd i always remain in a semi aware state when they do take over but it i am a differnet person and so not recognise myself, my surroundings or family. It’s scary as hell.
The increase in meds seems to be working now. Psychotic symptoms dampening down a lot but I’m very depressed.
