My sza/psychosis fascinates me. I escape into it, I don’t like reality too much. Does that make me weird?
Alien my evil companion is tormenting me but at same time I can’t imagine life without him and almost love him. As for Sarah the good spirit I love her tons.
When Alien tells me to hurt my husband or puts inserted thoughts in my head about this, then I feel urges to enact it. So but only on myself. It’s safer that way. Better control.
I feel so evil. I had argument with my husband over a silly thing I did, and he was upset but I wanted to laugh. Alien is my companion but I don’t want to get evil like him. I want to stay safe with Sarah away from him but he’s very influential.