Starting Clozapine today

I’m starting clozapine today. I’m s h i t t i n g it. Last night I had leave from the hospital. Every time I go to this hospital I get a tattoo. I went and got my tattoo. I got back from the hospital and checked back in and just started breathing like crazy as I was checking in with the nurse. I was having a massive panic attack. He took me to my room but my room is tiny so I was like nope it’s way to small in here so went back out to the nurses station and they calmed me down and gave me some valium. I called my mum to settle me too but she was quite mean to me about always needing her to calm me down. She was using tough love to try and get me to calm myself down (yeah like that works in the middle of a panic attack!). So now I feel all alone in taking a f u c k I n g scary drug.

I have been up since 4am waiting for med call. I’m going to have breakfast now and then start the drug. I feel really scared and alone.

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Clozapine is a good drug. Give it a chance. :crocodile::crocodile::crocodile:

Welcome to the forum @Nagame :sunny:

I hope Clozapine works for you.

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Welcome to the forum! I’m sorry your mom was hard on you. Do you live with her?

A therapist might be a better option than relying on your mom. A therapist can teach you coping skills. @Ninjastar has a list of things you can do to help yourself calm down during an attack.

I’ve never tried clozapine, but it’s a life changer for lots of people. At least give it a try

Here is ninjastars list that I believe that you are referring to @CoCo :

Some things I do to calm down are:

Put an ice pack on the back of your head. This will cool down your brain and reduce activity in your limbic system, where emotions happen.

Do a task with simple, clear steps. I like baking. I follow the recipe, and it’s easy enough that I don’t get frustrated, but it requires enough concentration that I don’t have room to think about other things. Cleaning also helps.

Engage your five senses. This will remind you what is real and what isn’t. Listen to soothing music. Smell something pleasant, like an essential oil. Suck on a hard candy. Look at pictures of things you enjoy. Feel something with an interesting texture, like a piece of Velcro or a stress ball.

Try to levitate something with your mind. You obviously won’t succeed, but it gets you to focus all of your attention on a single point outside your body, instead of on your thoughts. I like to use this on airplanes or in public places, because it doesn’t require you to move at all. It looks like you’re just daydreaming to observers.

Listen to a guided meditation recording

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Yes! Thanks @Bowens!

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welcome to the forum @Nagame

sorry you had a panic attack =(

Clozapine is good med.
I’ve been taking it for 2 years

Hi, yes I live with her. Probably not for much longer after all this. It has turned into a massive fight. She was my best friend. I have a therapist but I can’t call them every time I need a soothing voice.

You could call your therapist and talk about coping skills so you don’t need her so often anymore

I obviously have but sometimes you just need someone to say it’s going to be ok.

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I’ve taken Clozapine for 2 - 3 years now. It is a good drug. Give it a go. Those side effects are very rare. And as you’re monitored so closely when you start taking it, if you do have a reaction, it’ll be picked up quickly.