So basically after contemplating back and forth with myself about whether or not I should pick up a sport, I decided that I’m going to call the local gym to participate in the adult beginner basketball lessons that they have. I thought that life is short and that I really should challenge myself especially while I’m young and in college.
I’m gonna need to have something to do during spring break so I pretty much decided on getting fit and working out because I’ve never really taken it seriously before. I think getting off my behind and getting into shape will help my self esteem and confidence, and also give me a better sense of body image which I have been struggling with for years.
Basically my plan tomorrow is to go to the gym in at noon and work out a bit and then head to the other gym for the class. I’m not trying to push myself too hard. I’m just doing this so that way if for some reason I can’t participate in the lesson I’ll at least have had some type of exercise done so I feel like I’ve accomplished something that day.
I’m kinda nervous and scared to be honest. I like basketball but I’ve never played it seriously or joined any type of sports team ever for that matter. I was always really shy as a kid and bullied a lot in school so joining a team never felt like an option for me nor did it feel safe. I’ve always wanted to be an athletic person but a lot of jocks who bullied me were total stuck up jerks which made me not wanna be like them. But I’m not in high school anymore, nor do I care what ppl think. I just gotta try cuz I know imma regret it if I don’t do something now.
I say I’m scared but thinking about it now, I’ve taken dance classes with a lot of ppl when I was first starting and was the worst actually lol. I couldn’t keep any type of rhythm or follow proper choreography. But I guess my hard work and patience paid off because I ended up in a dance crew and performed at multiple stages back in high school. I’ve ended up passing auditions before as well. Lol sounds like I’m bragging but I’m not trying to. I’ve been dancing for 6 years now and I’ve enjoyed every moment of it. I guess what I’m trying to say is when you follow through with something, no matter how difficult it may seem in the beginning, you end up getting results you never thought would come to you.
Also guys, I know I made a post a while ago wanting to be taller. Lol this is my freakin last resort. I’ve never been serious about exercise as I said before and I’ve never really pushed myself to a point where I can’t really breathe or feel super exhausted. I just think that if I try frequently on a regular basis I could possibly grow a little. It could be wishful thinking but imma have to try^^ I will keep updates throughout this year on if I grow lolol
I think I answered my own question, as I usually do (what else is new?) I’m not scared anymore! I’m gonna stick with this and give it my all!! Thx for reading, wish me luck xD
