I am practicing positive thinking. Yesterday I managed to pass the substitute teaching quiz despite being mostly unable to study. I was freaking out and only able to study 5 minutes at a time and get about 30 min in total. This morning I got up at 6 am despite how fatigued from the meds I was and made it through day treatment. I am freaking out about the tax job since the last time I worked, it ended badly. But I used the positive thinking techniques I learned in CBT and told myself I was letting negative emotions take over and need to use wise mind. I have a job interview today and another interview next week Friday. In addition I see my therapist next week Wedneday and have day treatment and substitute teacher training as well as some support groups I wanna go to all this weekend and next week. But due to therapy I am not letting myself get overwhelmed. Whatever happens, happens. If I fail, at least what I am doing now is give it a good try.