I can’t answer myself—whether these experiences are already close to psychosis, or just… a temporary worsening. Or something else..
I started to think that my boyfriend was secretly filming me with cameras in his room, maybe even in the bathroom—without any real evidence. It seemed like he somehow knew what mood I was in that day, what I was doing on the computer, or similar things—so he would come back home adjusted to my mood. I know it sounds strange.
Then I believed that he was communicating his expectations of me through his body—like just a look. The medication subdued that feeling, basically—it now seems like he doesn’t behave that way anymore because I stopped taking the medication.
These are examples from daily life… overall—it felt like I had perfect intuition, a sixth sense—that I could know things in advance. For example, I felt absolutely certain that there would be a war.
In a way, I started to overestimate myself. A kind of self-glorification.
The worst part is that I feel like either this was the beginning of psychotic symptoms—or maybe there is some truth in it? I don’t know.
Paranoia about being filmed in this day or age can be normal but I think you took it a step too far into a schizophrenia area by saying he’s filming you and reading into your moods from filming you. It’s like normal paranoia that took another step into more paranoia territory.
Just without medication it felt like he knew what I was doing every second—directly. It even seemed like he would come back home depending on what I had done during the day—certain moods… It felt like he was acting, pretending we were a normal couple, while in reality, he was totally obsessed with me. And I’m increasingly starting to think that I was delusional—because before my first psychosis, I had similar delusions about another guy—that he was obsessed with me, that he was stalking me—even though we were also a couple. @2Waynez
I have a delusion that a girl that liked me in college is stalking me and I see her car everywhere. Yeah, your situation sounds like mine a little bit.
It may be psychosis (and a meds adjustment could be beneficial if so). But I hesitate to say that you aren’t being watched since I cannot possibly know if you are or aren’t. But if you are that would then be something you would better be equipped to handle if you’re not in psychosis.