When I was severely ill I entertained many dark thoughts. I won’t go into the details but they were very disturbing. Now that I’m doing a lot better I’ve really tried to avoid dark things.
The other day I was browsing and read about a band releasing a new album. I had heard of them before and was curious what all the fuss was about so I looked them up on youtube.
Oh my, they are good. I won’t name them as they are an extreme metal band that would probably invoke unpleasant symptoms in those vulnerable to such things. I was entranced by their song. The vocals were incredible and the music almost haunting.
I want to hear more, but I worry about the effect on me. I can feel myself drifting back a bit, to old thought patterns when I listen. I haven’t listened to this type of music in years. Wow, just kind of weird how things can pull at you.