Hi everyone, its been many years since Ive visited this website. I dont know if anyone remembers me, something strange happened to me yesterday. A little update before I dive in. I take haldol 15mg every day since about 2019. My cat got fleas three years ago and ever since Ive had terrible tactile hallucinations of bugs on my arms, in my ears, and in my hair. Some days are worse than others. I dont even have a cat anymore and I still have these hallucinations. I heard a vitamin b12 deficiency can cause tactile hallucinations (my mom told me this) so i bought some vitamins off amazon and hope to see a reduction in my tactile ones. I also noticed that I hallucinate reflections in things that cant reflect anything. Very strange. Im constantly wondering how thats possible. I do have auditory hallucinations from time to time. A funny one i had recently was I was going to bed and i hallucinated my dad saying “Isnt it crazy that you hear voices?” LOL.
So overall I still have frequent hallucinations, occasional delusions, and a lot of cognitive difficulties. But Im much better than I am unmedicated so no worries about me ever going off meds randomnly.
Now onto what happened yesterday.
I was sitting in my bedroom, blinked my eyes, and suddenly the room transformed into a whole different room.I blinked again and it switched back. I dont remember what i saw but i remember thinking How is that possible? Thats never happened to me before and its extremely disorienting/distressing.
Thanks for reading, and if you remmeber me, hi ! Im all good lately ! Health is always up and down, thats life. But things have improved a lot the past couple years.
Indeed, I see him next week! I was going to ask for an additional med to see if i could get the hallucinations under control, and ive had a few delusions like thinking bees (as in the insect) are spying on me outside of the bathroom window when i get out of the shower. Haha. So I was like. well, I dont HAVE to deal with this. Ill ask my psych what he thinks. But just in case he doesnt have a solution or doesnt want to add a med, I have those vitamins.
Hes a great psychiatrist. Something funny happened a few months ago when i Saw him, I was telling him about an intrusive thought I had and he laughed! I was like :o But then when i was talking about it with my boyfriend, he said “well you have a good humor about your illness you were probably already laughing so he felt comfortable joining in” and i was like dang ! ur right! haha. I tend to giggle nervously when talking about uncomfortable things.
Yes haldol typically works really well for me, but then again I still have a ton of breakthrough symptoms. I guess what I mean is, Im much better than I am unmedicated so I figure its doing the best it can haha. Ive had to have the dosage upped twice over the years. 15 mg seems like a big dose, but i remember a woman in my suppport group on facebook was on 25 or 30mg. I was like dang! Haha
i used to take 60mg a day and knew a guy in a day program i was in on 100mg a day. inwould never take that dose again tho. it would make me so restless now
Someone in my support group on facebook told me their husband has this symptom. He goes blank, freezes, and says hes somewhere else. I had no idea this was a “symptom” that others would have. Makes you think. What if we really are someplace else?
