At first I thought I don’t have the illness and someone is controlling me, but now I believe someone or some group just sort of triggered the illness in my brain. Most of my symptoms died down after medication but this belief is always there and when I try to accept it, I start to get stressed out and think about all the weird stuff that’s happened that makes me feel like I don’t have the illness in the first place.
Does anyone else feel something similar?
I felt kind of like that but I don’t think we are supposed to talk about it. It’s kind of like pouring fuel on the fire for those of us who are still delusional.
What gave you the disorder is either substance abuse and / or genetics. There are some instances of people going psychotic from eating a really poor diet, like living off of vending machine nacho chips for a month, but those issues usually resolve once the person eats a normal, moderately healthy diet.
It’s not healthy to think that some “conspiracy” afflicted you with the illness; the answer is definitely, 100%, more mundane and unremarkable than that.
Sometimes I think Maybe i don’t have anything and that maybe I just went through heavy experiences. And everything the medication is treating is just like after effects like a sort of ptsd.
I have this thought too, I believe it at times but then I just push it aside and tell myself it’s just a delusion
If it weren’t for people I would’ve never got this illness.
If I was alone on earth, I wouldn’t know ego.
I wouldn’t know pain.
That said,
genetics
and me deciding to ultimately take drugs
have given me this illness.
Even if it was other people who made those drug experiences as bad as they were.
But I don’t think it was planted in me
The closest blameworthy entity is god.
Another explanation I can come up with is that I stepped in cosmic do do
My father gave me this illness, sza. I inherited it from him.
Yes. A council of aliens controlled me and the world for a while.
Likewise. My father had late onset schizophrenia in his 40s. Like him I developed late onset schizophrenia in my late forties. We were one or two years apart from each other. The world works in mysterious ways.
You do realize that this forum is frequented by rural dwellers?
i think I always had the GAD but then a bunch of major stressors in a row and it went to delusions. my aunt had an anxiety disorder and my grandpa had some sort of problem but he died before i was born. I don’t know if relatives had delusions or not, maybe. I was diagnosed with different disorders at each hospital stay. first time bipolar 2 second time bipolar 1 3rd time GAD 4th time schizophrenia then the follow up psychiatrist who i saw for about 6 years said i had GAD and paranoid delusional disorder, so i didn’t get a mood stabllizer. my daughter is bipolar. She thought i needed a mood stabllizer. supposedly my sister was bipolar but she didn’t believe it. she thought she had OCD so didn’t want the meds. She’s not really moody and worked most her life but is a homebody. Just the other day my sister said there is autism in our family too, i didn’t know it.
Hi Manny same thing here
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