My hook up won’t hook up with me anymore because I asked why he saw me if he didn’t like me. He said no, he didn’t have feelings for me and me asking was extremely awkward for him. It’s been since Nov, 2014 since we started hooking up. He sells me pot and now he won’t sell me pot.
It’s like on the one hand I’m extremely detached from normals but on the other hand I crave their acceptance and i never get it.
i realize i have no idea how to maintain a real relationship—like ever. the whole illness prodrome stuff—came up in puberty, so i’ve never really developed socially since then…and now it’s hard because i hide my true self.
Cookie emoji kind of makes me feel better.