Every time this happens, I pry open my shell and step out, I feel like i’m on top of the world, I make plans, I text and call people I know, I’ve set in motion the notion that I might be interested in what is for me the great unknown…
And now i’m all sketched out, this is why I live within my shell, I only come out when it is comfortable to do so, otherwise I’m all shut down…I’m so nervous tonight, I look forward to the possibility of giving up, the freedom to free fall into oblivion… maybe just once or twice…I don’t care anymore and I care more than most…I can only step out of this shell for so long before it envelops me once again.
I’ll hit you guys back tomorrow sometime. 