I cant stand it anymore it’s a s hitty drug makes me more anxious and makes me spend all my money and I dont earn much so what ever I have is a blessing makes my eyes roll to the back of my head makes me tired and depressed. Sure I dont feel psychotic anymore but I’d rather not live then go back the that
s hitty drug again.i just want to be able to work and live a normal life like everyone else I know everyone has problems but this is debilitating. I have stopped my meds for about a 5 days I was only 2.5 but I just feel I can cope with out it. I’m fed up of feeling like I have to spend all my money on rubbish. For example I spent hundreds on doll kits for artist type dolls that i said when i was better i was going to do them making excuses for buying them I got rid of them 3 times and rebrought them back all the while knowing I dont even want to do them it’s just the spending money part. and buying rubbish like ornaments and things I dont even use and didnt use when I was well such as art supplies thinking I would be this master artist. When in reality with this illness I’m never going to be one and I was never absolutely spectacular at it.and neglecting what I really need to spend money on.i just dont want to be forced to go on it again. I also find it very difficult to concentrate when on the drug because I’m constantly forgetting things and my attention span gos out the window.i want to be able to read and start hobbies that are really meaningful to me on this drug I cant and am forced to stay on the internet looking at rubbish all day long. I feel like my worry and ruminating is coming black slightly though. Not very much but just a little bit I feel my self getting angry over stuff that has happened in the past and that’s a sign that I could get paranoid. Why cant I be like everyone else and just be able to forget about it that what the problem is unresolved trauma. That’s why I’m trying to regain some my attenspan so I can focus on something else. I also have trouble with letting go of things it’s like i try so hard to keep fighting for a battle I have already lost and get fed up and exhausted and depressed for it.i wish I could just learn to let go. But I dont know howm
I was even spending what little savings I had just to fund this stupid habit of mine
You can leave a message with your doc’s secretary or answering service.
Yeah. I know how that goes.
But switching meds is always a pita. And sometimes you send your life into a tailspin if your not on enough meds/med isn’t working right.
■■■■ that ■■■■. I’ll support my habit and stay on abilify.
Everyone in this board has a legitimate complaint about their medication situation. Mine is that it doesn’t work well, but it does get me by.
Just my $.02
Maybe try vraylar? I think its a similar med without all the impulsive behaviour problems
Abilify just started the tardive dyskinesia. I couldn’t deal with it so I went back to my old ap. I hope you get to feeling better.
I have had the exact same problem of ruminating about the past and not letting go and getting angry about the actions of others my whole life. Also I have been paranoid about the motivations of other people.
When I lowered my dose to 3.75 Olanzapine, I noticed the ruminations returning. I hope that this isn’t a sign of relapse.
Now you’re off of antipsychotics you should keep us updated with your progress. I hope, it all goes well for you! I want to come off myself soon.
Really that doesn’t sound good. I just wish this horrible disease didnt exist. It’s a pain in the ass
Sorry.
Lest we forget.
I tried to forget painful stuff but now I want to remember every thing evil people have done to me.