It feels like that’s just what I was born to do is sleep. My body craves sleep more than anything else it seems like. That’s why I really don’t like going on any meds w sedating effects because they never just last the night they last well into the next day too. It’s so so difficult. If I don’t take my modafinil I don’t function, I have no idea how I made it though college off that med.
Even now I feel so loopy despite getting a solid 8 hours sleep last night. It’s immensely frustrating. I go to sleep and just dream and dream, one vivid dream after the other. A voice was taunting me last night saying I put sleep above all else in my life including loved ones. I hate that deep down I feel it’s true. I’m arranging my whole lifestyle and future career around being able to sleep as much as possible for crying out loud.
Off medication I can sleep all day long and still go for more sleep. Yesterday I was asleep most of the day and basically just woke up for meals. I slept from 1 am to 2 pm, then had breakfast, then was asleep until 5 pm, had dinner, went to sleep until 8:30 pm. I was still sleepy and went to sleep for the night just 4 hours later.