I have slept for a grand total of three hours in the past 77 hours. And a total of 16 hours in the last… 5 days.
I feel really weak but I’m too afraid to go to sleep. I don’t want to discuss what I think will happen if I do go to sleep but I’m afraid my body is going to give into sleep without my permission any second. I don’t know how my brain is still on. Or maybe it’s not. I’ve been nodding off for an hour now and each time I jolt awake with a heart racing.
I want this to be done. My head is dizzy. My heart is pounding. I wish I didn’t have this disease.