Sometimes we have to adjust to how we are at any given time, and have reasonable expectations of ourselves
Seems to me you want to help others. Could be something as simple as giving up a morning volunteering in a charity shop? Something simple might make you feel better
I personally think it’s because I’m subconsciously thinking that the worst things could happen to me if I’m not careful because after all… I got ■■■■■■■ psychosis
I honestly don’t know that I do… not anymore at least… I feel like I’ve completely lost that selfless instinct… or like I’m mostly just worried about myself nowadays…
Maybe try to help in smaller ways. Joining the Peace Corp, flying to different countries and adopting kids are huge deals, especially if you have a disability (or whatever you want to call it). I feel good just by donating to a few good charities or giving cash and food to people sleeping on the streets.