So every few months i get this paranoid delusion that showers are dangerous. That the water is full of bacteria and poop and it’ll make me sick. And also that someone will break in and kill me while im showering. So its dangerous on multiple levels. Im experiencing it now, and logically i know its not rational, because ive been through this before and got through it. But it Feels so real. It prevents me from showering. In the past month i went 16 days between showers before i talked to my therapist. I talked to her last week and she told me i Have to shower. So after a few days, my husband finally “forced” me into the shower and i got it done! 8 days since my last shower! And i don’t feel proud of myself, i feel dirty. Like the water just made me gross. Its horrible. How do i get past this? Does anyone else go through this?
Maybe your meds aren’t keeping you stable enough. I think you should make an appointment with your psychiatrist and tell them all this. I’m sorry you’re suffering like that
I’m very afraid of water and HATE the feeling of it on my body.
I have to just put my brain on autopilot and do it.
Don’t think about it,
Just get naked and get in there.
Yes, luckily i have an appt thursday. Thank you!
I’m glad you’ll see your pdoc soon
I do. I won’t tell how long I go between showers, because it is embarrassing. 
I love getting clean in the shower. Then shave and brush my teeth. It makes me feel sane.
I used to live with a person in my group home who was afield of water and he smelled bad. He got thrown in a swimming pool when he was 3 years old and it traumatised him.
I use to believe that the water had cocaine in it. And I even got chest pain and arrhythmias from it. I believed that everywhere I went the water would release a secret valve that released this water, but only for me. The power of the mind. I don’t have this delusion anymore because of meds. I still have a boat load of other delusions though. Have a good day.
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