Oh that is terrible. When I have voices they are usually neutral saying things like “she has no idea” etc…My problem in the shower is that I’m paranoid there are cameras in there.
I’m so sorry that you have to deal with that. My ‘watchers’ are with me all the time, including the shower. They have tortured me before but not in the shower (yet). They just push a button and can make me absolutely terrified without even touching me. It’s awful.
I have a hard time getting myself to shower too. I have no voices tormenting me. I just simply don’t like or want to take showers. I don’t like the whole process. And the thought that I gotta do the whole thing over again soon is more than I can bear.