My chest is heavy.
I took a benzo.
I have negative, aggressive voices.
I feel as if everyone is an actor.
What should i do?
My chest is heavy.
call a p’doc quickly…
I don’t want to bother him.
If it gets worse, i will call in the afternoon.
Here now it’s almost noon.
Up until now i have 11 voices.
I remember the onset, 4 years ago,
when I had only 3.
It’s the madness progress and evolution.
I remember an old user of this forum
who used to say that they had hundreds of voices.omg
Goddess Annette, mother of gods and men. Saint Isidore, representative of Goddess Annette, good voice. Lucifer, Satan. Louisa, representative of Lucifer,evil voice. Avavu/Avavulix personal guardian angel. 27.000 demons perform the running commentary, offsprings of Louisa. Jesus praises and loves me, and wants me in the kingdom of heaven. Meher Baba, wants me to be full buddha. We share the same mustache.
Mr thoughtless is hebephrenic, disorganized schizophrenic, making up words. Stockhausen pushes me towards creativity, saying that i must make my opus 3.
Stalin is the symbol of will power and iron fist
Hope you’re doing okay… I say call em
Well i napped for 2hours
and i am much better
It seems that voices get
more and more complex
as the years pass.
In the beginning, I had one,
after that, the two opposite
forces: Isidore and Louisa.
Then they reached 10 voices
and these days the 11th came.
My depression gets worse in the mornings,
maybe because the interval between night dose and morning dose is very big.
Doing the same things in the same order every day, worsens my sadness. I can’t stand life anymore.
It’s tiresome and boring.
And sadness causes stimulation of mind, chaotic mind and voices.
I take my night meds 2 or 3 years before sleep.
I sleep for 12 hours, so it’s 15 hours since the night dose until the morning dose.
And because of this voices are worse in the morning.
My folks keep telling me
“call your doctor”.
But i am determined to
fight it alone.
To endure the pain,
the paranoia, the voices,
the depression etc.
Something strange happens with my tv
I have the warning signs
that i slip into psychosis.
Voices, depression, chaos in mind
Tv knows me and talks to me etc.
I’m trying to stay strong
your problem is that you believe the voices are real. you should tell yourself they are all just delusions. what they say isnt true. stop believing what you hear. its not easy takes lots of practice and repetition
Today it’s the Easter in Greek orthodox church.
It’s a feast. I shouldn’t call him today.
Or maybe i should?
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