Yea like I said, it’s most likely not schizophrenia. It’s not in my genetics, and I’ve never had hallucinations / fixed delusions before. I’ve had anxiety type delusions where you worry more about yourself than external things but that’s a common presence in severe anxiety. My psychs also have told me alot they can tell when someone is SZ and they said it’s very doubtful for me because I show no external signs of it. However this thought disorder is very awful and a bitch to deal with. It feels like my thoughts are unable to be conducted fully in my head.
I’ve been on two AP’s before and abilify helped while geodon ■■■■■■ me up badly. Abilify had terrible side effects though and caused me to have mania. But I was thinking clearly which was a big trade off.
Yes, so I definitely qualify. But I feel like it could be other things. I mean I qualify by having negative symptoms and delusions, which interfere with my ability to work, have relationships, and do self-care.
I take modafinil, which is a non traditional stimulant and not as “harsh” as ones like Ritalin, adderall, etc. I was prescribed it because it is supposedly safer for those with psychosis and less likely to trigger it. (Has worked great for me and not triggered it at all-in fact I notice my symptoms are curiously reduced or nonexistent when it’s active)
It doesn’t really feel like taking a stimulant at all. It doesn’t make me hyper or energetic. It prevents the sedation and sleep attacks and helps me to feel motivated and focused. I can still be tired when on it, and usually also drink a cup of coffee a day along with it. This has greatly reduced my previous caffeine intake which was extra shots of espresso/energy drinks.
I personally don’t consider a person who has never had positive symptoms as being schizophrenic or schizoaffective, but that’s just me. Cognitive symptoms and negative symptoms can come from a lot of things.
I still have it every once in a while. When I was taking geodon for a week and got off it I had dissociative episodes with depersonalization and derealization. That was some crazy ■■■■!
Hard to tell what’s going on exactly. I think it’s a combination of a cluster of mental illnesses I have but I really doubt it’s SZ. My psych also says it’s probably not SZ. I’m gonna describe him the issues in better detail next time I see him.
I know it may sounds weird but when I do things that use heavy dopamine and other chemicals like watch porn, workout, or even gamble i don’t feel manic for a couple days. When I deprive myself of these “bad” things that’s when the mania feeling hits me. I don’t know what the hell is going on. I suspect it’s hypomanic and some sort of bipolar issue with the ocd and add that are causing these thought problems. It feels terrible though I feel so stupid and have such a hard time following conversations or deeply thinking about stuff now.
Schizophrenia without delusion and hallucinations look like :
Sea without water and fishes
School without students and schoolteachers
Family without parents and sons
Sky without stars and planets
Schizophrenia without hallucination and delusions= recovery !