Have you ever been in bed laying still, but your heart was racing? Nah it wasn’t nothing I smoked. I believe it was from two protein bars I ate earlier that day in my system. I don’t know what else it could have been maybe it was all the sugar ingredients? I took another trazodone, which I rarely do. I only like taking one, but last night I couldn’t sleep because my heart was beating fast and I hadn’t even been moving around! Just the paranoid build up and afraid to die type thinking that followed, I was thinking maybe it was my time to die since schizophrenics don’t live long. Bruce Lee he wasn’t skitzo that I know of but he died at age 36 of an aneurysm.
I could go anytime, basically because how SZA affected me, and it being a severe illness.
On side note this should be in the medications forum however, one person had managed to OD on seroquel, he had taken like 18,000 mg. I was looking a pyschiatric site if you type in “seroquel 1200mg” Gooogle. I thought about increasing to 1200mg. It is probably safe and I’m just tripping. I’m afraid of lithium toxicity I mean my body could change levels of it, and I won’t know it or be in a position of help until it actually affects me.
On a good note, if was sunny and beautiful today. Definitely a day to thank life, some of it anyway. The earth moon and stars. I’m alive now that is all I know. I respect others and never take my life for granted.