I woke up to someone grabbing my arm. I’m really sleepy and could desperately use the sleep, but I’m scared to go back to sleep. What if it wasn’t just a meaningless hallucination? What if it was more? What if it was my son again? What if it was a warning? What if I’m supposed to be awake for something right now?
I’m scared to fall asleep not knowing if it’s safe.
@LED, It’s not your son. He is in a better place and wouldn’t bother you because he wouldn’t want to upset you. He loves you as much as you love him, and you wouldn’t want to scare him like that, so why would he do it to you? What you felt sounds like a hallucination. I used to have a hard time washing my face because closing my eyes for that long terrified me; I could just feel a demon lurking behind me. I slept with the light on. Do you think that’s something you could do? Do you have a lamp in your room that will light it up just enough for you to make out what everything is without being so bright as to keep you awake?
Was probably just part of a dream or hallucination.
Is baby LED there? Babies often check on sleeping parents to see if they are awake yet. (you are the baby’s closest and only playmate) Maybe it was the baby that touched you?
She was out cold and on my opposite side.
The reason I think it’s my son is because he’s been visiting me a lot recently. 5 or 6 times now. He holds my hand and laughs and talks to me. I haven’t been able to hear what he’s trying to tell me, though. That’s why I was worried it might be him warning me of something.
I had to sleep on my couch yesterday because I was too afraid to sleep in my room. I haven’t been sleeping well at all lately.
I also worry that I may need to get up for something or that the hallucination is real or a warning. It keeps me up a lot.
I hadn’t slept in a couple of days so yesterday I took a pill and slept on the couch during the day when there were people around. It’s not ideal but it helped. At least I got some sleep.
I know you want to believe it’s real, but it really is not.
You have to hold onto the idea that it might not be real, and you have to remember that you will feel better if you get some sleep.
Lack of sleep will only make things worse.
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