For the last couple of months out of the hospital I have suddenly acquired a very big fear in losing my voices, even though they are awful sometimes. I get angry when the doctor says they have to go away because of what they tell me and whatnot. I am still not on stable meds and I don’t know if I’m really scared to lose them or if they are inserting that thought in my head, if that makes sense.
On a logical side, I understand that they torment me but I don’t act in a logical way anymore. I want to get better, to function better, but at the same time it terrifies me. I have been having the voices for around 10 years.
Sorry for the long rant. Wondering if anyone else is like this.