I can’t seem to find anyone here who was afraid of being taken away at age 40 like me. My family act like robots. My boyfriend who is very intelligent says I’m not crazy, that he knew crazy people that have died crazy and I’m not it. I believe him. But I still can’t get over how depressing it is that they’ll take me away and turn me into a man, the dictator. And my boyfriend who is now cruel will find it funny after he abandons me. (Maybe he isn’t cruel, but he won’t be maybe able to stop it from happening). It’s so messed up but I get to be happy for 10 years until this happens. And then I go to hell in the end.
I feel like some predator posting here because I feel like responses help me feel better. But I feel like I’m not in the appropriate forums because I don’t really have this problem. But living in my own reality makes me feel better than the real reality.