Yeah, I know I can be pretty hard on myself; I would say Iām my own worst critic.
The administrative assistant received my email; we are just waiting on the associate dean to see if he will approve a sub for my lab.
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Iām having a tough day with grief
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I used to punish myselfā¦very self-destructive behavior @times
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Grief unfortunately is a part of life. Weāre hear if you need to talk. I grieve for my brain daily though I try not toā¦itās haaaard to accept myself as I am
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At school waiting for class to start. I feel particularly anxious for some reason. Just unsettled and a bit tense. Might be the nicotine. I have been cutting down so much when I had my nicotine gum just now I felt a bit peculiar.
Also contributing might be clogged arteries. I been having chest pains to some amount for the past year. Not as much lately but I read anxiety can be a symptom of clogged arteries. I donāt know I was smoking for 12 years and it can contribute. Iāll be sure to talk to a doctor soon.
@freakonaleash donāt be ashamed. You have a serious condition and need some time off to stay as functioning as you are. Itās alright
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My hubby has coronary artery diseaseā¦try and get a ct scan. Plz see a drā¦it can get scary bad! Grats on cutting back, tooš¤
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I feel like giving up but my kids need me. Iām sitting here on my recliner wondering when things will fall apart or get it together. At least itās Monday and itās cheap pizza night so I donāt have to think about making supper. Life sure isnāt very fair. Yep the great pity party. Who the hell cares anyway.
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I feel anxious and sad at the same time.
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Thatās great! Your an inspiration!
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My apologies to you all. I have re-read the guidelines, and also, the one above that hones in on religious discussions. I also read the poll that was taken, and I feel the majority of the members agree. Iām new and slipped up. I respect the members of the community, and I am aware that religious topics do trigger some of us, so I vote: No Religious Discussions.
Thank you.
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Itās fine, Fran. No worries. Welcome to the forums! I hope you like it here. 
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I do, Treebeard. I love it. Itās therapeutic for me at such a late stage in my illness.
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Iām bogged down by grief today. I was yesterday too. Itās like every day gets harder.
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Thanks, I hope youāre doing ok.
I have been trying to find a good therapist, but it seems Iāve used up all the covered ones, in this cityā¦ when I do get to talk to one, they can never help. Idk, sorry, Iāve just really lost hope.
I donāt even know if Iām schizophrenic. My only current diagnosis is depression and anxiety. Voices arenāt there, all the time. Iāll go through long absences, but they always come back. 
Iāve recently been referred to a new pdoc, who is supposed to re-evaluate me. Referrals usually take months, though.
And thanks, Iāll definitely keep that in mind, if I ever need. 
Is that the main site? I donāt think Iāve ever even been on it, before.
Iām really not important, but thanks for trying. 
I donāt really have any support, whatsoever. I have zero friends and I only have my family to talk to, but theyāre horrible people and I canāt really talk about mental health things with them, because they will use it as ammunition to get me, and talk about it to others.
Iām honest tempted to just tell my doc that Iām going to kill myself, and let him lock me up. Our next appointment is a couple weeks away, though.
Thanks so much, I hope youāre doing okay these days, yourself. 
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I really need to go back to being smoke-free, or at most a couple Black & Milds per day. I canāt afford cigarettes.
I bought a Black & Mild just now, having my second and last cup of coffee for today.
Two adults arguing three Chihuahuas barking at them. Get kicked still snapping humping adult leg .
Sorry having episode.
got into a shouting match w/my dad.
gonna go to the local community center gym w/my lil bro in a lil bit and try to do some light deadlifting or something. try and strengthen my back.
hopefully that .5 ativan i took lasts a bit longer, im cool for now but might lose it, considering taking half of one maybe, actually probably will in a minite
Iām sorry. Is there anything we can do?
Here, have a cup of tea and cry with me.
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