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#845

Sorry to hear that :frowning:
Maybe you need a different brand of lip balm?
Or something like coconut oil?


#846

Jfk. I know politics is frowned upon here but…I mean damn. We can coexist. :smiling_imp:


#847

Not good…not good. One of my mood swings again. I’ve been obsessing over how at work today I couldn’t remember the tips to tell this one Mom of a student of mine who found out she may be having asthma reactions to the water I learned about swimming with asthma from a past student & teacher. The mom and student really like me and I feel like I let them down. And my other student in that class, she has a serious allergy to peanuts & sometimes we give out chocolate as a treat and I didn’t give her any but sometimes they fall in pool and she’s acted really weird the past couple classes gasping and just not swimming well and it’s the second time I called her parents out because I was concerned but it was nothing. And I feel embarrassed about that even though they were glad I was concerned.

I can’t stop obsessing over these things and other little things I did wrong today or feel I didn’t do well enough. Makes me feel like crap. I’m getting that urge like I want to die again and was saying I just want to die. Father stopped me and said “Why do you want to die?” And I realized I was having another of my mood swings. (I was doing fine earlier…) I have restarted taking depakote though but what if it’s not working anymore? But I’ve also only been back on for a couple weeks. I don’t know. This isn’t right. Or am I feeling this way because my ptsd has been flaring up again lately? Ugh I hate this. I feel like I let the parents of my students down.

summary: I’m obsessing over small things that aren’t really issues and that I shouldn’t feel bad about by any means but I do. Having another mood swing and feeling horrible want to die. Scared because I have been on depakote again for like 2 weeks now that it’s not working. But also my ptsd has been flaring up so could be that. Either way I’m miserable currently.


#848

That’s a big wall of text. I like your summaries. Sorry.


#849

Oh sorry didn’t realize I forgot to put it I’ll add


#850

Ptsd. It’s hard. I post on Myptsd.com

I love that site. Lots of friendly people.

:innocent:


#851

I think I actually go on that one too :joy: haven’t been on in a while.

I sorted it out now. One of my helper voices Father walked me through it.


#852

Oh, I sometimes wish my nurse practitioner hadn’t been so stubborn that she understood the umbrella of autism spectrum disorders so well when she basically disregarded the idea that I could have autism due to sheer eye contact. :confused: I heavily fit the criteria for pervasive development disorder NOS but she seemed to ignore that’s even a diagnosis that existed and was simply lumped under the ASD umbrella since it’s considered a disorder but like “ASD-lite.” I certainly need to see someone with more specialized knowledge and experience soon.


#853

I need to see my PCP but her first available appointment isn’t until mid September. I don’t know what to do. I went ahead and made the appointment just in case, but I think I need to find a different doctor that’s more available. Or maybe I’ll just go to urgent care? But that seems excessive for my issue. I just keep throwing up a lot because I’m like, not digesting my food for some reason.

Like, I just threw up and there were bits of my breakfast that I had eaten more than 15 hours ago. This has been happening more and more recently and I don’t know why. It’s making me a bit nervous to eat, though. I don’t want to keep throwing up. Maybe I just need to eat less? Maybe I’ll start switching out a meal for a meal replacement shake.


#854

I went to bed super early. I’m up now because of nightmares.

:v:


#855

I found a pretty cool Johnny Cash guitar lesson on youtube.


#856

Have you ever tried prazosin for nightmares? I’m thinking about asking my pdoc about it.


#857

Hi there @LED!

No, I’ve never heard of prazosin. Is that a sleep aid? Do I need a prescription for it?


#858

It’s actually a blood pressure med. Yes, Rx.


#859

Are you having a hard time sleeping tonight too?


#860

Yeah. I keep throwing up.


#861

I had a similar problem for over a year. It turned out to be ptsd-related. I went through every freaking test in the book and they couldn’t find anything wrong.

Take an antacid like omeprazole so you don’t damage your throat and teeth too much.


#862

That feeling when you open the fridge and the smell of day-old salad hits you in the face :face_vomiting:


#863

Give it to the snails?!

:joy: :wink:


#864

Really? PTSD related? That seems odd. Did the antacid help you vomit less?