Itās storming here. 
ā¦I donāt really know what to say right now. Therapist said sheās not allowed to say Iām stable to board of nursing because the old therapist said that on the testing I did months ago it showed symptoms of psychosis. Even though at the time I went over with the tester and my old therapist that I didnāt realize I was supposed to report things I was currently experiencing and instead listed everything I had ever experienced in my life so I ended up looking way crazier than I actually am.
Pdoc refuses to write the letter even though heās the one prescribing me bc he just ādoesnāt write those lettersā. Iām in a horrible situation because none of my mental health professionals here really know me well enough to feel comfortable writing me this letter because I literally just moved to this state a year ago, it took me a good while to find people to work with, and I switched therapists. So itās a hot mess. At this point I feel I am forced to leave the state for my nursing program because of the stateās specific and descriminatory policy against certain mental health disorders.
Iām sorry to hear this @Anna.
I know that being a nurse has been a dream of yours for quite some time.
I hope you are able to find employment in that field in the near future.
Iām going to have a meeting with the person in charge of it again to go over my current situation and see if thereās any options left for me. If not then I have to go to school in a different state that doesnāt have such discriminatory policies. This stateās loss.
Today on things that annoy me: people who spend a long time in the bathroom even though they know others want to use it
@antidepressant044 I think I just got your storm. Do you want it back?
I was in the shower and the lights went off. Scared the crap out of me because there are no windows so it went pitch black. Iām such a baby lmao.
Iāve had a pretty good day. I was blown away by my lab studentsā performance on todayās lab exam. It was an easy one to grade, so I graded it after lab. Awesome. I also graded my lecture studentsā exam from Thursday, and overall they did very well, too. That was nice to see, strong performances on my exams.
I have absolutely zero intention on buying any cigarettes or cigars, or using any nicotine gum, in the next few hours before bed, so I think itās safe to say that day 3 of being nicotine-free is a success 
question: do you ever keep contact with people you used to date/talked to romantically but never dated that it didnt work out with? i do but it makes me feel kind of stupid because part of me still loves them and i feel like i look dumb
Sometimes I do. My ex-wife and I still text occasionally. Thereās this other woman I dated for three months in 2011. We had a clean break, didnāt talk for years, then I looked her up on facebook. We text once in a while, and Iāve taken her to a few concerts. I have no romantic interest in either of them now, though at one point I think I was still in love with my ex-wife, not all that long ago (like last year).
I can see how you would feel stupid in such a situation, just know that you are not stupid.
tomorrow will make one month of probation completed. no drug or alcohol tests yet. I havenāt had a drink but I want one. normally I would drink once or twice a week but I guess this is my sobriety year. the last time I went a whole year without having a drink mustāve been when I was 16.
How long is your probation? Do they just randomly make you drop, and you donāt know when it will be coming?
Sobriety isnāt so bad. Itās been nearly two years since my last drink; you get used to it.
You hit your head??? What happened?
I just made a thread.
my sentence was a year probation. I donāt have to check in every month like some people have to. but they can call up out of the blue and make me go get a drug and alcohol screen.
there was a whole list of things I agreed to at sentencing. one was the drug and alcohol screen. maybe they wont ever call, but Iām guessing they will call at least once.
yeah Iām trying to enjoy sobriety, but drinking was my escape. it let me go on living and not worrying about my lack of results. iāll get used to it. 
Me rn.
Iām trying to save money and have the AC set at 70/21 instead of 65/18 like I prefer, but i donāt know if itās worth it tonight. Most nights lately it hasnāt bothered me, but Iām sweating a lot tonight. But I want to get used to it because itās starting to get hotter out and I canāt afford to keep my place at 65/18 all summer. This will be our first summer in this place and itās bigger than our old place, but itās also more shaded, so Iām hoping that helps a lot.
I feel super nauseous again what the heck 
Iām so tired and I want to sleep but Iām so uncomfortable
Iām always sick lately wtf
Same, yo. Why do you feel sick?
Iām hungry, and being awake all night only makes me more hungry, but I have to get blood work done in a few hours so I canāt eat anything.