๐Ÿ€ Say Anything XLII


#102

My head is aching. Stress can do that


#103

I managed to relax and play video games for a while. :slight_smile:


#104

Last night I took double my prescription of hydroxyzine to self medicate and it is coming back to haunt me. Iโ€™ve been blanking out all day. Instead of exercising more, Iโ€™m going to get an early shower and binge watch anime and journal.


#105

Iโ€™ve asked. And no real proof, just stuff Iโ€™ve heard, and she can always say it was a hallucination.


#106

Aaaaand now Iโ€™m sad because of dysphoria.


#107

Procrastinating homework. I hate it. Iโ€™m so close to being done with the semester but I just canโ€™t focus on anything right now. I ran out of one of my antipsychotics and had to take 2 400mg pills instead of 1 300mg and 1 400mg. Iโ€™ve been a zombie all week and I just canโ€™t focus. I got my meds refilled so Iโ€™m ok now but Iโ€™m still feeling super slow. Really stressful. Just needed to vent.


#108

Thomas, I know what you mean. When I was in college, I was so much like a spongeโ€ฆ I could absorb, and then regurgitate info. Now, though, I donโ€™t think I could do it. Kudos to you. Youโ€™re doing great. Youโ€™re almost there. Donโ€™t quit!


#109

Thank you. I appreciate it.


#110

Alalalala bamba i had a cucumber i threw it at your mamaโ€ฆ


#111

La Bamba was one of the first songs I learned to play on the guitar hah. It does have a few funny lines that are sometimes sang but usually not in the radio versions. One such is, โ€œTo be your brother-in-law, to be your brother-in-law, I need you to give me your sister, I need you to give me your sister, the prettiest one. Baila baamba.โ€ It also has another line, โ€œTo dance la bamba, to dance la bamba, a little apathy is needed, a little apathy is needed, to dance la bamba.โ€


#112

First song i learnt to play on the guitar was house of the rising sun when i was a kid.


#113

Good song. I know that one as well. I was just listening to it a few minutes ago.


#114

I was just reading the news. It can be heavy on the mind.


#115

Its near 4am here woke up hour ago from dream I donโ€™t remember, cbd weed takes care of bad and good dreams for me protects me from them


#116

Good morning people!!

Itโ€™s 6 am. I am getting ready to leave to the gym. I will walk 45 minutes, do weight lifting then come back home.


#117

I almost forget my mental illness. I feel bad for what happened in New Zealand and even Brazil. I also saw the roughly 100 to 1 ratio at which casualties from the war of Iraq and Syria earned someone a star on the shoulder. It is wild that star also is a reminder of how many of their soldiers died. Then on the other side, it is stunning to know that over 400,000 people have died collectively, maybe more. Then I saw Mexico is on a list of war torn countries. A disheartening to say the least. I think there is a sort of empathy that makes one forget about their own problems for a moment. The loss of life saddens me. I feel more human than sick. A moment ago I was thinking about alien life observing us and artificial intelligence being self aware. Then I thought about unobserved forces, read about gravity thinking to myself that it isnโ€™t unobserved but still wondering there must be. After reading the news I feel bad for the relatives of those lost.

Great now iโ€™m thinking about how similar thoughts occur between large groups of strangers. I know someone else in the world must feel horrible about facing those facts. Iโ€™ve lost a few friends in bad ways. It is horrible that it happens in the world. There are over 7 billion people in the world and war would suggest over a couple million people killed in the last 10 years collectively. Thank goodness a world war has not erupted again. I also wonder how efficiently some countries kill in comparison to others and how some deal with it throughout the year. Itโ€™s a bad thought.


#118

I wish I had the motivation to exercise. Iโ€™ve already received offers to sell my treadmill apart from it having become a glorified coat hanger. So much for doing it daily.


#119

I sometimes smoke weed but Iโ€™ve been trying to drastically cut back on it. Before it would help me sleep.


#120

That sounds like a good time. Iโ€™m going to walk around my neighbourhood today get some sunshine :sun_with_face:


#121

I still have the delusion of alien life and artificial intelligence. Secretly I really believe both are real. It just seems so plausible to me. I donโ€™t know if itโ€™s unhealthy to think about those things. I normally donโ€™t give them much thought. Maybe my mind wants to find an explanation for the madness.