After today I have just three more days of teaching, then I’m off for two months. Have to make this commute only three more times.
I wonder if I can get unemployment after teaching, since I’ll be out of work by no fault of my own, didn’t quit or get fired, just sort of like a layoff. There simply were no hours available for me for the July/August term.
i more or less “came out” to my therapist about my eating disorder today and she wants to refer me to a specialist because she thinks its serious. i dont know how im gonna tell my grandmother that im going to see an ed specialist when she doesnt even know i have one…
we also discussed personality issues and she whipped out her dsm and went down the list for symptoms of some personality disorders and said while she thinks im more borderline than histrionic, i meet enough criteria for both to be diagnosed. she got my permission to discuss that and the eating disorder business with my nurse practitioner. i go back in a week. im nervous
Embarrassing We went to go pet sit/learn how to care for two different family’s dog’s today and both of the families happened to have an unneutered male dog and both of them just BEELINED for my crotch. Ughhh. And the second one it happened with had its junk poking out and when I would shove it off started licking itself. If I was sitting and stood up it would lick the chair where I had been sitting!! Really awkward and disturbing. Please neuter your dogs!! Both of them were definitely old enough to have been fixed.
I guess it shouldn’t bother me because they’re just dogs but it weirded me out for some reason. Plus just uncomfortable to have happen in front of strangers & family.
something im confused about is that the therapist and nurse practitioner i see seem to think my autism rather than a psychotic disorder is to blame for my hallucinations/delusions? ive tried researching it but i dont see anything saying those are particularly common in people with just asd. ive seen studies showing that people with asd are more likely to develop a psychotic disorder, but nothing about just plain asd causing hallucinations or delusions. idgi. sometimes i feel like they just dont want to label me schizophrenic because im high functioning/self aware.