Mentally burnt out. Thinking too hard drains me. Is this common?
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Wonder if this affects those on SSI too:
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Still on an emotional rollercoaster but the end of the day was just fine. I am looking forward to the phone interview.
I got my period for the first time in almost a year. My flow is so heavy I bled through several times during tonight.
Uuugh.
Guess Iâll be sleeping on my black couch tonight so donât ruin any more sheets.
Ew.
I foreseen my future, it will be great 
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Just got up, having my coffee. I had to get up early this morning, getting my Abilify shot.
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Big time - I have a similar problem
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Damn, I had planned on taking a nap after I got home from receiving my injection, but now Iâm afraid if I go to sleep I wonât wake up in an hour, regardless of an alarm.
Sigh, I guess Iâll stay up, maybe make some more coffee.
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Got school today hopefully people will talk to me.
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Good morning. Iâm still tired.
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Good morning, did you get much sleep?
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I got a little, but not enough. I should have gotten up and closed my window. The cold was keeping me up.
Had weird bad dream-maybe triggering-I canât get out of my head. It started out kind of fun. I was an orphan, like 11 or 12 years old and lived with Johnny Depp and Helena Bonham Carter except in the dream they werenât celebrities they were thieves. So we went around stealing stuff and pulling schemes to get stuff.
However one day we pulled up to a place we wanted to hit and it was weird because Johnny Depp sent Helena in all by herself and told me to wait with him, usually we always went in all together. But we were like whatever this must be part of the plan. But when she left, he suddenly told me I was beautiful and he wanted me. I felt very uncomfortable because Johnny Depp is what like 50? 50 something? And I was 11 or 12 in the dream. Also I trusted and looked up to him as a sort of father figure because I was an orphan and had basically been adopted by he and Helena. I tried to laugh and play it off like no thatâs weird youâre too old, etc but he was very persistent and wouldnât stop trying to grab at me. He ended up catching me and telling me he wanted to know what I felt like âinside and outâ and then started to molest me. I started crying/whimpering in fear at this point. Just before he was about to rape me Helena came out wondering what was taking so long and saw us and was shocked and he finally let me go. She was mad because she had a crush on Johnny and was disgusted heâd choose a kid over her who was actually his age. Later that day I was hanging out with some other friends my age and me and the girls discovered weâd gotten our periods and were chatting about it. Johnny Depp overheard and seemed disappointed, but I felt a great relief like phew now he wonât try to sleep w me again.
Thatâs not the first dream Iâve had like that, where Iâm a child and a much older man is trying to hurt me like that. And actually there often is a woman involved too. Creeps me out.
summary: Had a dream Johnny Depp was a rapist pedophile. Jeez.
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Hi all. My depressive episode has let up someâŠjust a big waiting game as usual.
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Just showered, all fresh and clean now. Iâm just killing time as I wait for my hair to dry a little more. All I have left to do is brush my teeth and get dressed, then I can head to campus. Tonight will be easy, just giving exams. Itâs awfully boring, though. Oh well, Iâll get out early.
@ThePickinSkunk itâs good to see you posting, glad youâre feeling a little better.
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dadâs new home construction has hit a snag. bank wants him to pay flood insurance and he doesnât want to. I think heâs kind of cheap personally but whatever its not my money. anyways if they donât build a new home we will have to keep living together for a little while.
o and my mistake the house downtown hasnât sold yetâŠitâs still available, im going to talk it over with my brother when were hiking. should I save money for retirement and live w/ mom and dad? or should I be an adult and get my own place?
theyâve started to harvest the corn fields. pretty early this year mid September, it seems they didnât get to it until mid October or so last year. I know we took a trip to Minnesota late October and most of the corn had yet to been harvested.
I got the fence up. Just have to tie it off. Will test the dogs out in the yard tonight and see if they can get out. You can still see the lake okay. Have to get the wife to go and have a look.
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we have another guest. a bike rider from âwarm showersâ .org. my parents let people stay here who are taking bike trips through the area. somebody takes em up on it about twice a year. the place they put em up at isnât that nice, I mean the roof doesnât leak and it has a toilet and shower but itâs a dumpâŠanyhow this guy is going to sleep here tonight and be on his way in the morning.
my dad is too busy to entertain today but im sure heâll get the details about where this guy is heading to and let me know. in the future we will have nicer conditions for our guests. iâd be embarrassed if I was mom and dadâŠtheyâre shameless