I had one of those, Nichole. We dated as kids, dated in our teens, broke up on and off.
Year or two will go by and we’d contact each other again, fool around, and break up again.
For many years I thought her and I would ultimately end up together. I still love her in part. But it just never seemed like the right time.
But then I met my Current fiancée. All my care and energy went into her, and as a result I’ve found a love with my fiancée that far surpasses what I had with Nichole.
I wish Nichole a good life, but her and I shouldn’t have contact. It took a while to come to terms with that.
You’ll find your one. Just don’t give up