@anubis, sometimes when I feel a panic attack I try to focus on my physical self…and sometimes it can feel like a heart-attack, at least with me. If I can sense my symptoms coming, I find a quit spot and do deep breathing and try my best to clear my mind of everything. Sometimes if I can I put on relaxing music and try to focus my attention on that, and not what’s going on in my head.
To me, not trying to judge…just help, it does sound like you have some anxiety problems. It may not be full on panic attacks, but a milder form of it. I just wanted to state that sometimes a panic can feel like something else if you’re not focusing on your thoughts. I hope you can find the right medications, it took a while for me and my doctor and we’re still adjusting from time to time depending on how I’m doing. I think after a while your body gets used to a certain drug, or drug amount and you need to ether change the amount, or the drug to maintain a healthy balance.
I know it’s hard, but try not to focus too much on work, and just about you and yourself. I’m glad you have a job you like, and that your company sounds like they really value your work I hope things calm down for you and you can get back to doing what you do.