The only issue is when I am on break for too long the floodgates in my head come crashing down and I go crazy. The last time I had to do a hospitalization program was during a break. It is a lose lose for me either way.
I hope you feel better Anna! I had delusions and voices when I was in college that made things rough for me, but I made it through. I think you can too!
Iām hearing voices. They sound so real.
Iāve been doing well. I know they canāt be real.
The voices still sound real. I donāt really hear much now, it just feels as if the conversation really did occur.
There is no such thing as telepathy. I know I canāt possibly have heard a conversation over 100 miles away. Schizophrenia can be difficult.
Try and focus on things that give you joy rather than just entertainment.
unreliable sources have confirmed I need a nap before work, wake me in a hour
I woke up on my own I would have blamed you all if I was late for work!!!
Iām gonna lose the scholarship that pays for my tuition and books and other fees for school cause I couldnāt find the motivation to go to classes. I might take a semester off to rethink my goal. I donāt think I wanna be a preschool teacher anymore and Iām not good at English classes although I love reading and writing. I might try to get my poems published and work on my stories/the soldiers stories done.
Walking in a strange light, looking at the walls
The walls are getting higher and I think theyāre gonna fall
Theyāre gonna fall down over me, crush me till I scream
Now Iām only hoping that Iām living in a dream
Itās just a dream;itās just a dream;
Fear lies over me, I feel it all around
Somethingās looking at me and I think itās got a crown
Itās not a king or a queen but something in between
Now Iām only hoping that Iām living in a dream
Itās just a dream;itās just a dream;
Itās strange how things seem to be different
When youāre living in a dream
Itās strange how things seem to be different
When youāre living in a dream
Wars and violence here happen every day
But Iām in another world a million miles away
Itās just like real life, true life, living in a dream
But everything is better then, or thatās the way it seems
Itās just a dream;itās just a dream;
Itās strange how things seem to be different
When youāre living in a dream
Itās strange how things seem to be different
When youāre living in a dream
Itās strange how things seem to be different
When youāre living in a dream
Itās just a dream
Itās strange how things seem to be different
When youāre living in a dream
Itās strange how things seem to be different
When youāre living in a dream
Itās strange how things seem to be different
When youāre living in a dream
Itās strange how things seem to be different
When youāre living in a dream
Living in a dream living in a dream living in a dream
Went walking with my co-person tonight. Sheās not much for walking, but I love it - especially when a 50-lb backpack isnāt involved.
The night sky was beautiful tonight.
I wanna be the pirate king!
I can not be Christian.
I tried n was perhaps a wanna be one but I just aināt n itās just not for me or what I believe although something big may of happened as I have felt stigmata similar but with out da blood.
I have my own religion.
Different creatures n beings etc
I pray sometimes n say thank you for food etc
I have not logged in for a long time and may not logg in again for a while as I havnt got my laptop yet.
Maybe we have vanilla sex (donāt know what that is really but am guessing)but I love him and want spend rest of my life n beyond with him n these things can improveā¦get more privacy ,intimacy,lust,passion,playfulness etc
He has my heart n all of me I reckon .
I have good faith now I think.
He is the most beautiful sexy amazing man and so sweet to me.
Can be so precious to just cuddle n feel hearts n bodies etc so close.
Hope you are well.
I love my new home.
I laugh out loud when no one else is laughing n I say strange words n I go mute n have difficulty around people etc
Still taking latuda.
Iāve been doing some knitting.
Ciao for now.
arrrrg matie, shiver me timbers !!!
Someone make me breaky and get me a tea, make it snappy to!!!
ā ā ā ā this lifeā¦
I donāt know what vanilla sex is.
But I love being with my man.
Love him.
I wonāt be logging in again for a while.
Otherwise lovely weather etc
Take care.
Feeling better today. Woohoo!
Weāre supposed to get 11 to 19 inches of snow where I live on Friday. Iāll prolly be working from home.