Haha!! Ok. I will. Thanks!
I’m noticing I turn to it when I get anxious, so I can use that and avoid benzos sometimes. Definitely need to remember to try that first. I can only concentrate on a little at a time, though.
How about you? Can you weave for a long time?
That’s great that you can focus on knitting instead of taking a benzo! That’s fantastic.
It depends on the day, honestly. Some days, I can go for hours! While other days, I can only manage 30 minutes.
Everything that I wanted to get done is finished. Laundry is folded and put away. There may be a dish or two to wash up but that is no biggie.
I am getting tired so I don’t know about practicing the banjos tonight anymore.
Just may read for a while. I have an ant farm book and two fish books so I can decide if I want to either setup an aquarium or formicarium.
I’m reading about CBT for anxiety. (I’m supposed to be reading about CBT for psychosis, but I got distracted, because the anxiety is “up” for me today.)
I am wondering how to apply it when there’s nothing specific that’s making me anxious. It happens for no reason. It’s just this terrifying, physical thing for me. Same with depression. Neither are situational for me, or triggered by anything specific, though my voices LOVE to latch onto the feelings. Or maybe I’ve got it backwards, and the voices trigger the depression and anxiety? (In which case, I should go back to the original plan, and read about CBT for psychosis… )
There’s got to be a way… maybe instead of focusing on the trigger, I can focus on the feeling, and go from there… I’ll report back if I discover anything interesting.
I vote “fish” – what happens if the ants get out and get all over the place???
That’s how I am! I get manic or depressed or anxious… but there’s no real reason for those feelings! Just comes out of nowhere. Hits me hard with no warning.
I’m nervous af. Little LED has her first day of school (ever) tomorrow. Other than the few days I’ve been in the hospital, this will be the first time she’s ever been away from me. 
I had the same issue trying to use cbt for my anxiety. I tried several times and I even stuck to it for months. In the end my triggers seemed to just be the brain chemicals.
My thoughts are that our fight or flight mode (autonomic nervous system) is just screwed up.
I’ve got the cbt for anxiety and depression workbooks too.
If you like workbooks I found the bipolar one for moods to be ok. I only use it if im struggling with an episode. And I also have an ocd workbook
My therapist was telling me to get all these work books at the time. Her solution was always books lol she told me if I get 0 help from them then she would pay for them for me.
But they did help a bit so I couldn’t ask her to pay 
Man, people get all freaked out about ants, sheesh… 
it’s not like they carry COVID or ebola or Hansen’s disease or anything… unless they’re driver ants (siafu), they won’t hurt you. Poor ants get a bum rap
Because they’re crawly and I don’t like any kinds of bugs!
" How about our old stand-by, peanut butter and jelly? Good news: Peanut butter is one of the most controlled foods in the FDA list; an average of one or more rodent hairs and 30 (or so) insect fragments are allowed for every 100 grams .Oct 4, 2019"
Under “FDA Food Defect Standards”
Ew ew ew ew ew ew ewwwwwwwwww I’m never eating again.
Interesting. I had a lot of trauma in my early life – I wonder if that has anything to do with it.
I’m not a workbook person. I’m more of a read about it, then apply it mentally, then maybe sort it out in my journal sort of person.
I think I will address it more specifically in my next therapy session, though. My therapist is always talking about the behavior activation part, and acknowledges that some of this is just beyond my control, no matter what I do.
My daughter was in 4H public speaking for many years and she always tried for attention grabbing subjects. One year it was a speech called, “You’d put THAT in your mouth?” She made half the audience turn green describing how castoreum was used to flavour strawberry ice cream and licorice in the past. She desribed it as “beaver butt squeezings” as it is extracted from beaver tushies (anal gland). Really. But, hey, it’s all natural.
Ha!! Your daughter sounds amazing!! I’m squeaked out by the reality, but I love that she’d do that!
She takes after me in many respects, usually to her mother’s dismay.
Aren’t gummy bears made from hooves?
The gelatin-based ones are made using collagen rendered down from the excess animal bits left over after butchering. You can get pectin-based ones that are suitable for vegetarians and that are kosher/halal.
Alright you chatterboxes, which one of you stole my whips?!!!
Monte here. I had to take a prn last night then I watched a nineties cheeseball movie, The Skulls.
I’ve just been laying around today. I did cook up the rest of my five minute rice though.
I got some fresh Fruit of the Loom joggers delivered earlier today.
Give hugs, not drugs you stinkers. 
