Saw Dr and talked long and hubby spoke to him too. I’d been whatsapping him over the last week or two when I felt so bad and he said the best for me is to go to hospital and transfer to the government psych hospital and get new meds there otherwise I’d keep on having to come see him over and over within the next few months and it would cost me more he said. So he wrote a referral letter to the general hospital.
I’m a bit scared but maybe if I can see how the weekend goes…and maybe I don’t need to go at all…hubby says maybe I can cope and feel better…I just wanna die maybe it would solve a lot of problems. …but I’m such a f-ing coward I can’t even cut properly let alone slit my wrist and I fear death as well f-ing coward I am…but hey?maybe I will be ok try to be positive. My husband needs me for helping him with business now.I can’t afford to be in hospital and hey?maybe my crisis is over…