So I had a sleepless night worrying about new job, and when i came to work i was in complete agony and started to feel paranoid, so i jist returned the bike and went home
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Oh really? What did they say?
They seemed to be more worried about me returning the bike than myself. The woman i was working said its really difficult job and shes been working there a lot. They didnt say a single bad word, because they knew that i am disabled
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I’m sorry you had a bad experience. I had a meltdown on my first day at my new job and have been having them almost every time I work I work i could quit too but rent
Meltdown is a meltdown, but having an episode can lead to relapse. From now on im forever unemployed, dont want to try any job
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I would feel the same
if I were you.
I can’t work.
Meltdowns also lead to relapse for me.
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I feel that invega was more ifficient for me somehow, haldol works good, but whenever im under stress i get instant episode. I really need to talk woth my pdoc but shes been sick for months now, i think she has cancer. Or i jeed to get hospitalized to change meds
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Today i felt that someone conspired against me, like purposely giving me the job to realize i cant work. Also walking back home was scary, i thought everybody knew about me
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Once as i was walking in the city,
I felt like everybody knew my diagnosis
Sorry it didn’t work out @Newlyborn. But don’t be too hard on yourself.
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Thats really scarry, now i know whay you mean when you feel “truman show” delusions
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I got the confidence of being able to work while on risperidone, i experienced much more stress and was alright, now on haldol i bum out on the first day. Its a red flag that i need change aps if i want to work in the future
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Hope you find the med that works best for you @Newlyborn. Best wishes.
My moms gonma be back from home and i will talk with her that i want volunterilly to get hospitalized
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sorry to hear you had bad time immediately at the new job… it’s good that you recognize your boundaries though. So you not gonna go work there?
What were you paranoid about?
That must’ve been awful
Most jobs are just slavery in disguise. I wouldn’t worry about it. I’m trying a new job.it should last. There are so many places hiring. If the urge to work ever comes up again.
I was becoming more like paranoid delusional. One of thoughts included that they specifically employed me to get an episode and realize that i cant hold a job. Like they intentionally wanted me to get an episode