Having trouble reconginzing myself in the mirror, using substances to combat my symptoms.
I’ll be good I’ll be good and love the world like I should – I feel my schizo has negatively affected my view on the world, and I should be less afraid of the world and love it like I should.
But the blood on my hands scares me to death, maybe I’m waking up – there’s plenty of times I honestly believe this world is a dream and I’m not real.