I think my perception of how women perceive me is misconceived. I have the misconception that if I possess a car, a job and a home that I would have the foundation to have a family. I was wrong. I now believe that my schizophrenia has altered my perception of reality in terms of how a relationship with a woman is supposed to really be like. My schizophrenia may have changed the way I pursue or how I am receptive to a woman.
I am hallucinating actions by a woman that are not real. I am having delusions of gestures of love which aren’t there.
It’s so sad that I feel sorry for myself for evening thinking the way I did.
Any guys or men on this forum whose perception do not coincide with reality when in a relationship with a woman due to their schizophrenia?
Maybe its erotomania? I had it on Abilify and less severely off meds. Erotomania is common in sz, its a form of delusions. I know I lost my emotions and women need someone full of emotions and alive. I feel like I am boring now to women and I feel dead, like a zombie. I don’t try anymore to get a women after my gf left me due to my sz.
Yes, I believe I am now heading down this path as finding a woman at my age diminishes. Unfortunate as my situation is with this disease, being a lone schizophrenic man is the true reality just like many other schizophrenic men are.