It is like 99 percent of the life I lived is before the diagnosis, there used to be so much to do, so many people to meet, so many places to go.
After diagnosis, it has been hell of a battle dealing with the illness, and it has quite literally, consumed me. In the sense, that not much happened in my life apart from dealing with the illness.
I have been trading stocks since the last three years, but I am carrying a diagnosis since the last 14, and time flew by— I don’t know what to say, I suppose what I am trying to say is that “99 percent of the things that happened in my life” happened before the diagnosis, even though it has been 14 years since the diagnosis. I guess with sza time literally flies.
I guess going to College in the island of manhattan, whether for master’s at Columbia, or my undergraduate institution, had its charm. Its the social hub of the world, with all sorts of people, a melting pot.
I feel like living in a much more constrained world currently, and also because of the lingering symptoms…
Positive symptoms are a struggle to deal with, though I doubt it, I used to feel being under external control. Currently, sometimes I believe it, sometimes I doubt it, and mostly don’[t care about it since things are not bothering me currently.
But, these symptoms you are mentioning are a constant struggle. It takes a bit of make-believe to convince yourself that it is nothing external, it is your brain playing tricks with you.