I made a bet with God today that if I went to my friend’s apartment I would get permanent mad cow disease. I hung out with my friend today but I didn’t visit his apartment. However, I’m afraid that I got skin particles on my friend and he went home, so now they are going to say that I went to his apartment because my skin particles got inside his apartment.
My parents say that that isn’t true. My mom said it’s “sci-fi bullcrap.” She says just because your skin particles went into someone’s apartment doesn’t mean that you went in the apartment. I’m afraid that she’s wrong though. I’m afraid I lost the bet though and now I’m a dead man.
I really wish I didn’t make bets like this. In all honesty I don’t want to. They just pop into my head in response to the voices I hear in my head. I hear this voice in my head all day long making bets. The voice will say, “if you do this you will get mad cow disease. If you do that you will get Lou Gehrig’s disease. If you do this you will go blind and deaf. If you do that you will get an aortic aneurysm.” Then I start making bets just like the voices do in response to them. I try to scare myself away from doing what I feel like I have to do by making bets like the one I did today.
So now I’m really afraid that I have mad cow disease again and this time it’s permanent. This time I won’t get better. God can’t cure me now because I made that bet. If only I hadn’t made the bet permanent, maybe then God could help me. But he can’t help me now because I made it permanent.
I’m really upset with myself. I was feeling better and everything. I thought that I was dead before, but after a month everything went away. Now I’m worried it will never get better now.
Does everyone feel like I lost the bet? I feel like I did because my skin particles got inside his apartment. So now I’m doomed.
Thanks,
SnowTiger
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Don’t worry. It’s not real.
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I keep making bets with the voice in my head. I don’t know how to stop. I keep thinking that it will make things better to make bets, but it always makes things worse. I don’t know what to do.
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Bet yourself that you won’t make anymore bets! 
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Thank you for the idea. I try to call the bets off and usually the voice says “okay the bet’s off.” But I don’t believe it.
The voice in my head is kind of nice about it. He says “okay, all bets are off past, present, and future.” But I don’t believe him. I think he’s still going to get me for them.
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Sounds to me like there’s some OCD going on here…the constant testing and repeating… along with the voices. Perhaps bring this fact up with your doctor next visit
Yeah I’m pretty sure I have OCD too. I wash my hands a lot. I’ve been getting rashes on my hands from washing too much, so I need to cut that out. I also check things obsessively. Like I check the computer that I logged out from at school 28 times before I leave. I always count to 28 by 7 x 4. I count 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, and then repeat three more times for a total of 28.
But the bets are the worst. I really feel like they will come true. To me the voice in my head isn’t a hallucination. I really believe it is real. I believe the voice can do magical things to me based on the bets I make.
My parents take it all with a grain of salt. My mom always tells me “thought bets don’t count.” She says I can make as many bets as I want, but they’ll never come true. But I always worry they will come true.
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There’s separate medications for OCD. I suggest you look into it with your doctor.
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He prescribed me Prozac but I haven’t been taking it. I get paranoid about taking new meds.
Take your prescribed medication. The Prozac is for OCD. The way you are thinking/ behaving is irrational. Follow your doctor’s plan.
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I made more bets today. I’m really upset with myself. I feel like I’m going to face divine retribution for making these bets. I made bets with the Devil, and now I believe the Devil will get me back. I feel really really stupid for doing this. I’m very upset with myself.
I feel like my life is over. I’m a dead man now.
Calm down Snow Tiger god knows your issues and he knows how you feel don’t you worry he understands just pray and tell him you didn’t mean it, it is your disease he will understands it isn’t your fault man calm down everything will be okay breath watch a movie relax brother I promise you’ll be okay ;D trust I would’ve been dead 100 times since I keep betting last time I bet if the light turns red in 3 seconds (which it did) my whole family would die brutally… This was 3 months ago my family is still here.
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It’s gonna be alright. Your bets don’t have that kind of power. Try the prozac. Give it awhile (months) to work.
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I had a similar problem when I was 13. I was terrified of the thought of going to hell. It got so bad, I started making bargains. Like, if I could make it out of the bathroom within ten seconds, I wouldn’t go to hell. Or if I could walk down the hallway in a certain number of steps, or if I turned a doorknob in a certain direction and not the other… Yadayada. It was constant. Some kind of OCD. I eventually outgrew it, but it was torture while it was going on. Pretty sure you don’t have Mad Cow Disease, and I’m not going to hell and neither are you.
You sound like you might be a religious person. I get that. I like what forlornsaint said. God understands what you’re going through. He won’t condemn you to an everlasting eternity in hell for being sick. If that were the case, every time we got the sniffles we’d be doomed. I also like forlornsaint’s idea of watching a movie, or even listening to music. Watch or listen to something you find inspiring. Something happy.
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Hang in there man … don’t neat yourself
Up… seems like you haven’t
Lost a bet yet!! So technically Your winning ! I understand because I used to make bets and deals in my head …constantly… all day long … one time I thought I got mesothelioma. Which clearly I did not . So I G’d up and started making bets in my favor … kinda like Heads I win. Tails the voices lose. Try it… set up a rigged bet… and let us all know how it goes… you got this …
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If you believe in God them
You know that the devil is a defeated foe. You have nothing to worry about
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Thanks for the responses guys. They really do help.
I made more bets this morning. I’m not sure I can prevent myself from doing it. I feel really stupid for betting these things.
I really don’t want to do it, but sometimes I can’t help myself.
Try being objective. You can’t will yourself to get mad cow disease, there’s no scientific causality between that and contracting the disease. Also, it’s pretty rare, one in a million, and symptoms typically don’t occur until age 60.
Now I’m really upset again. I made another bet that if I went down a certain road again tonight I would get mad cow disease. I didn’t go down the road again, but I feel like God gave me mad cow disease just for making the bet. I heard a voice in my head saying I have mad cow disease now.
I’m really angry with myself and afraid. I really wish I didn’t do things like this. It’s hard because I hear this voice in my head all day long making bets. He keeps making bets so I start making bets too. I try to cancel his bets by making bets of my own.
I hate myself for not learning from my mistakes. You would think that I’d learn that making bets like this is bad and I that I shouldn’t do it, but I can’t stop for some reason.