My social worker has collected a sample of my medical records for the meeting (board) where it’s decided if I can get disability.
I have just read them, and it’s a shock to read about yourself in the Pdocs language. It’s so sterile and “objective”, like if you were an animal examined by a professional zoologist, there is no place for “me” or the way I understand myself.
Apparently I have not got a future, I’m “treatment resistant” and there is no hope for recovery.
Treatment resistant is doctor speak for “the first meds they tried didn’t work”. Anyone taking a combination of 2x AP’s, and anyone taking the older AP’s, are probably labelled the same way as you have been.
Like others have said, treatment-resistant is just a fancy way of saying the meds don’t work. I am in the same boat.
I am also at the age where there are no major goals looming on the horizon. Someone once said to me, it’s okay to look back, just don’t stare. I find the same thing applies to the future. I have to concern myself with what I do now, not whether my future conforms to society’s view of what “a future” looks like.
Psychiatrist reviews are very cold and clinical. Try not to let that influence you too much
Thanks, that’s just the way I feel, but that doesn’t mean you can’t have a meaningful life. And i will try just that.
I guess it’s the outside look and description of yourself that is difficult to accept. Suddenly you see yourself as others, professionals, see you. And there lies this strange feeling of being alienated.