i have two types:
1 ) the psychosis where i know where i am
2 ) then the psychosis where i get lost…
my last bout was the second kind.
i wish there was a pill for this ■■■■, i don’t take meds but sometimes i wish i did.
when i first came on this site i thought i would find everyone on meds and cured…
i thought i would feel the odd one out.
that is why i refuse meds, because there is no cure.
i wish i did not hate people so much
i wish i did not want to kill people, harm them…make them suffer.
my evil side is rearing it’s 
werewolf head…i am demonic 
at the moment
i am suppressing my urges…to ■■■■■■■ kill someone, my enemies.
i struggle against this ■■■■ all the time…it is tiring.
senarios come into my head…of me doing evil things.
how they would run from me screaming…not so brave now you ■■■■■■■ cowards
the darkness beckons me.
take care 
thanks for listening, no replies needed
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I am sorry you’re going through this. I hope you feel better soon.
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Hello Darksith
The problem with our minds is we have a conscience, we understand and live with pain and anger knowing how these things make us feel, and we can also in turn understand how pain and suffering effects others. The voices do not understand pain, anger or suffering making it hard for us to deal with them as they become badly done within our souls mind. Once the voices started for me, I found that they did not understand pain, suffering, love or any other emotion or thought relating to these feelings.My voices understand thoughts and images in the mind, thoughts about thoughts it is our thoughts that feed their fire or bring them forward in support. I try to balance and explain my thoughts to them this allows them to understand these feelings I have and eases their misunderstanding greatly. They understand images in the mind the best so if you learn to talk in images they will loosen their hold on your thoughts.
I am sorry to see that you are suffering
Powessy
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**It is hard not to reply to you-you have helped me with some very difficult things. Wish I could do something for you… 
I am thinking of you! **
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The most evil thing about those who have wronged us is that they stay lodged inside of us, eating away at us and continually damaging us as if they never left physically.
There is a special hell reserved for those who hurt others, and when they enter those gates, all the hurt they gave, is given back to them.
Anger keeps the hurt too close, acknowledge them, but never forgive nor forget.
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I refuse meds for the same reason. And I’m a stubborn son of a gun.
Hope you feel better soon sith
Here have these puppies
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I think a reply is needed 
You know meds don’t cure as such but they can blunt all these visceral experiences , no point landing yourself in trouble or in hospital , rethink the meds , or at least have a backup supply to hand
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