I feel like the local radio stations are all playing songs to mock me…like hundreds of thousands of people want me dead.
I might check in at the Hospital tonight if I can’t shake it. I’m tired.
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Yeh it’s definitely a delusion, noone wants you dead.
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so sorry @PatrickT I am glad you are seeing this as something not normal still…you are unstable…please seek help.
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Thanks @jukebox…
We’ve had our moments, but you’re always supportive of me when I start to slide. I’ve always appreciated that about you.
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@PatrickT it’s not that I don’t like you patrick…I care a great deal about you.
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I’m off to the local walk-in clinic to see if I can get a note for work. I’m too exhausted right now to do anything.
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is this the Patrick I know, what the hell? you mean so much more than radio,
so tell all of them to shove it! If they want a piece of you, I’m sure they got another thing coming.
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Hey @Daze…
Long time no see. Yeah, I’m in a real funk these days. I’m glad you returned to say ‘hello’ and wish you and your son and daughter all the best! 
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what honey, I don’t want to see you suffer. thanks for the well wishes.
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I hope you get some relief soon. I have delusions about the radio too, I can relate.
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I just drove around aimlessly in my car listening to songs on the radio mock me.
I don’t know where to turn anymore. I’m exhausted from reading double/ triple meanings into everything.
What happens when you turn the radio off? Do your symptoms stop? Mine don’t, but I thought maybe it would help you.
Hopefully you got the note you were looking for so you can take a break. If you have a rescue med like a benzo, take it, and try to sleep the whole thing off. If you can’t, you may need to go to the emergency room just so they can give you some kind of relief. You don’t necessarily have to be admitted if you don’t want that.
Keep posting too, because we care here.
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I know this for a fact.
If my parents weren’t still alive, and if I didn’t have a wife and kids, I would have taken my own life a long time ago.
I can’t be selfish and scar the ones I love. So I guess I’ll just have to keep sticking this one out I suppose.
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I can relate to that too. I won’t put my husband, mom, and sister through it. But I have been suicidal many times. This illness is just too relentless.
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The radio just played the song Lunatic Fringe…I’m convinced the radio stations are taunting me.
Turn off the radio if it’s bothering you.
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yeah, totally, Patrick. I know what you mean. But think about other people when listening.
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I’ve become Radiohead…
I feel again like I have become a giant ‘spectacle’ in the media…not a God or Saviour or someone Important…just a spectacle of sorts.
But because I’m schizophrenic they leave me alone and instead just talk around and about me in circles.
Is this possible? Or is it all in my head? Because it is quite true I’d consider offing myself if I ever became a person of note.
((hugs)) to ya bro. Hope you can overcome it, I know how hard this is for you.
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