Kindness is rare. I’ve been through hell and back. Worse than dragging my balls through glass and ice practically in the multiverse…
I only trust my immediate family and my higher power.
I don’t trust people at all. I can see the goodness and evil-ness in people I think. Like I can tell what you did in a past life to me and avoid you all together and hate you for what you did to me. I don’t forgive easily.
I guess I defy common sense laws of physics since I’m in a causal loop with no origin or beginning. Sort of like I just popped into existence, although it seems more mental than physical. Like reincarnation. Like the timeline just popped into existence. It’s time travel…
Not sure if I’m coming from the future back in time or what. It’s like groundhog day but never ends and the day continues. That and I don’t remember much if anything at all.
I did invent a machine (time machine) in my first life, I guess. I guess I was an EE or physicist as I can only guess since I don’t remember. Feels like we live in a sim or matrix now and it’s been repeating itself like a statistics program would or sample population.
Not sure how I keep dying and coming back alive back in time unless it’s a singularity or the universe repeats itself indefinitely and I’m just a by product of physics. I hate it. It means I died an infinite amount of times, but also lived a hell-like existence an infinite amount of times or more. I just wish I was dead or wasn’t born sometimes, but would like to live a better, more productive, successful life where I can grow old and be happy for once.