missed my doggy kisses this morning
so i could take him out before any accidents
still pee all over the house
surprising how much comes out of his little cock
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Woke up late,
played online golf
with my best friend
his name’s not Rolf
eating bread
waiting for a guest
she gives the dread
a reality test
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Yeah
I woke up
Another day
To try again
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I woke I ate I walked I played,
I rode, I drank, Then in bed I stayed!
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Debated over lunch on what to munch,
Went over to KFC and grabbed the Big Crunch,
Needed to take a toke of smoke but I ran out,
Headed to the vape store to grab a bottle of juice,
Figured I’d splurge and let loose a couple of more dollars,
Bought a fancy bottle of cookie butter,
Took the dog out for a walk in the park,
He barked at the birds and ate the leaves,
Couldn’t stop him, he ran as he pleased.
Came back home and put dinner on the stove,
Another day in the life of a lone schizo bird.
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Woke up well friends to look forward to visiting and just chill
so awesome to help out the poor and pray for increase more favor blessings in to be still
to make it clear that they did not end as well
I was tempted to kill the pain I took too many pills brain spells
I confess my faults I need to show and tell
forgiven and put hurting and feeling lame
I’m going to state that I cannot keep making the same mistake if I am to represent his name
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Same as usaual.
Wake up, downstairs, ambitious.
Store, public, cringe…
Phones at restaurant, more cringe. Traffic.
More stores.
Cringe.
Exhausted. I hope “normals” do not feel this.
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■■■■ it this crazy life
Waiting is bad
Sometimes knowing
Is worse.
I want.to give up
Then i hear the words
From little mouths
That are growing fast
Even though I’m told
To quit
I will shut my ears
And put it
Out of my
Hurting mind.
There is nothing left
Hold on
Clinging to
That tiny shred
Of hope
■■■■ it
This crazy life
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The First of Many Tomorrows
The most jarring moment,
when I wake up and the
sunlight and consciousness streams
in to my awareness.
Everything that has transgressed is
right there.
I can’t deal with it.
The day ticks on like slow
molten lava heading for the ocean
to be quenched by night
only to erupt again
the next morning.
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Rocked the boat on the forum
Regretted it somewhat I’m a moron
Doc wants me to stay on geodon
She doesn’t know what’s going in
She doesn’t like me to chop and change
She doesn’t know how I stay sane
Still low in confidence Make bad choices
Said some things in stupid voices
Wish I’d never tried to make friends
Got turned out to the bitter end
A pill won’t make me who I want to be
Girl at work wants her job done by me
Wish I was confident made good choices
Said the things in the right voices
Feel like I’m always complaining
My stupid words need restraining
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Handful
Don’t do it
I forget how
It’s just the way
It falls
I can’t believe I have
Come this far
When I can look
At those eyes
Who I know really
Are depending on me
It’s like they walk
Out the door and
My brain becomes
An evil voice
I can’t run from it
I can’t run to them
The script that writes my brain
Has written the durge
The final hymn
My lips won’t sing
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I woke up
I went to bed
Some things
Are better left unsaid
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Another disappointment
A person, a thing, a place
Turned all around the same record playing the same song same old situation
The sting of this ones going to draw blood
Press through to elation
Concerned for a person as hes falling when he always stood
Concern for me im in utter exhaustion
Can i hang on through it all like i should?
Ive got my determination, but im hanging by a thread
Up all night no help, one reason, its out of my control, but if they’d only listened
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Did nothing all day
Stayed up all night
I look like a corpse now
Boy, aren’t I a sight
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Some Days Are Good Days
I volunteered at an art
gallery and met familiar faces who
know my name or my face.
I had casual conversations,
took down paintings,
sold and not sold,
The chaos of people coming
in and out
forgetting to follow directions
doing things their own way,
untethered to conventionally.
Complaints from the frazzled
person in charge, but also
thanks.
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Fun, fun if thee be a nun
Under old habits lie
Can we not sigh but
Kick only till we die
No matter the way
Or the sway, we’ll pray.
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Sleep
how i needed you so
sleep, where did you go?
sleep, i entered in to that domain
sleep, one more step into sweet refrain
i seen, i saw, i slept
I just regret that when i sleep
the time i waste i cannot repeat
i cannot stay awoken still
i need to take my token pill
but sleep makes my head neat
and tidy, i need it and it needs me
without it i would go crazy
whats to be, needs to be
and who am i to complain?
a mere mortal of flesh
so i caress my sheets
and wrap my cover
hug my pillow like my lover
close my eyes hoping to see
to dream, for rest
to remain blessed
with pure beautiful, wonderful
encompassing sleep.
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Moderator , Where’s my post. From just now?
I’ll retype it. 80 year old in jeans. “Well, s—” she said. Couldn’t get out of her chair. Made my day -
What did i do but what could have happen if i was totally cured.
Yes symptomps are gone but faith is bothring same as old.
Symptoms or faith that take down the most.
Its weired what i felt can i gave up after all that i have gone through!
I am translucently absent I can’t see myself, but still attached
I see that I seem distant though God is present Action in passion, a drive a balance
One thing after another a thought, a chore, a Music courus, worship, trouble or a New Perspective on myself at a glance, a Firm Stance
Time to make up my mind
Time to find myself a wife
Time to let go of my feelings in the past, reading the book of final outcomes and present intended tasks
Time to end this day at last oh Lord come fast
I feel like I’m in an awkward state
My head on my pillow as I quietly
My future bright ,Beauty never comes late
God help my heart to stay low give me your desires, give your grace, as I carry this lifes burdens in Stow
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