Sometimes I look back at the time where I was psychotic and think was it really that bad or did I just have a good imagination and a dramatic way to tell others (including my therapist and doctor)what I was thinking and dreaming at the time. Do Any of you know that feeling where you question if you really are/was psychotic ?
My situation might have something to do with the meds that I’m on (olanzapine) I’m sick of being tired, depressed and fat as well and am wondering wheter I really need this ■■■■. Maybe I was just overreacting when I told my therapist and doctor of what I believed to be my reality back then. If I just haven’t been so dramatic then Maybe I wouldn’t be on the meds at all.
I know the feeling from when I was delusional. And eventhough I know much of my thinking didn’t make sense I’m still like “but it wasn’t impossible either”
I felt things too strongly and acted upon ideas I partly knew were imaginary but wished some of them were real. But some very real, strange things happened too. Part of being mad means you have to play the part?