I want to live a sober lifestyle but everytime i’m thinking about it I get obsessive thoughts about drugs and alcohol. Usually when I use them it ends pretty badly alcohol gave me bad paranoia when I drank more than three beers and the benzo gave me visions. How would you get rid of those thoughts?
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I feel the same.
Sometimes I just wanna smoke some weed and get skunk drunk and step out of my own mind for a while.
But if I did that, I’d surely get psychosis-type symptoms, and it’s just not worth it. Sucks that I have to keep reminding myself of that, but that’s the way it goes I suppose.
I have a lot to lose as well— some stability, my relationships, my dog’s well-being also depends on me— if I lost it and went to hospital, I’d have to work ten-fold to get it all back to how it is now.
Somebody a bit ago was talking about the urge to be wreckless, and that resonated with me a lot. I have bipolar and SZ according to docs, so there are times I just wanna say fuuck it and indulge. Very difficult not to, but yea.
Sorry you’re going through this right now @anon19606225, it’s tough. Wishing you the best 
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I get that, I have bipolar with psychotic symptoms when I used drugs and AD’s at the same time when I was undiagnosed I had mixed episodes that made me lose a lot but it seems like I didn’t learn anything lol. Thank you for your input 
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The only way to get rid of bad habits is to replace them with good habits. Get busy with something positive. Hobbies, volunteering, exercise, whatever. It will get your mind away from using.
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Not sure. Some random ideas. No clue if it works. I trust velociraptor with this.
- Seek support. AA. NA. Friend.
- Know what you get out of alcohol/drugs. If you want to be distracted because you are bored, indeed: seek a hobby. If you numb trauma: seek a therapist. Etc.
- Know why you want to stop. Positively phrased. For me being physically healthy, means my mood is more stable, and I can be a better mum for my kid.
- Know your vulnerabilities. When and with whom do you use. On a more innocent note: I binge cookies when I have PMS. Because I feel like ■■■■ then. So I may wish to not have cookies in my home during PMS.
- Someone here posted something about creating new habits…I’ll try find it.
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Thanks for your input @shutterbug @anon23801855 I appreciate it. I’m bookmarking this post so I don’t forget.
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Lately I’ve been considering the devil’s lettuce for anxiety but I’m almost certain it would cause me to be super paranoid and possibly breakdown so.
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Hm. Thinking still. Would it help to split it in immediate superficial change and longterm deeper change?
You want to prevent harm now. Thus you may dump the drug-seller friend. Flush the liquor away. Go running instead of drinking tomorrow. Buy an accountability bracelet. Whatever. That helps now. And it helps build trust in yourself. And makes it get easier.
It would be sad though, if you switch from alcohol to junkfood. Or find a new drug buddy next month.
I am not you. But I personally needed traumawork to stop doing that over and over and over. I learned that my body was not mine. So as an adult, I felt like bad decisions randomly happened to me. That this abusive guy miracuously ended up in my bed. Without me having a say. Or responsibility. Or the skill to prevent it. It took quite a bit of processing nasty stuff. Practicing boundaries. Good experiences (“I said no, and it worked! Yay!”). Building a self. Before I really felt that I could say no to stupid things. (And it doesn’t always work out still :)).
Not sure, maybe I talk ■■■■■■■■. Or explain it stupidly. Do you understand what I mean?
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I understand yeah, I actually got the benzos from prescription and was abusing them. I only have one stoner friend now but he knows weed messes me up. And I dont know where to get drugs fortunately. As for liquor I have a love hate relationship with it, it’s the substance most accesible to me so the thoughts about it are eating my brain right now. I am sorry you had to deal with an abusive relationship and glad that everything’s mostly fine now. Thanks for your concern
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Good luck! Hope you manage to find a way to deal with the liquor. It’s indeed stupid how accessible it is.
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yes i have the same. benzos made me comfortable except for xannax which i drank with and had blackouts sometimes at parties. i’m years off benzos other than some ativan in the hospital. i’m comfortable in my skin tonight so i’ll count my blessings.
i have the mornings in comfort and then it’s like my nervous system starts to cry out. currently struggling with that and have been for years. it’s not an option if i’m driving. i’m far more cautious than i used to be.
good luck with this.
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It can certainly make anxiety worse. My therapist and Gp told me to try it. Twice I ended up with super bad anxiety, panicking.
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Thank you for the wishes. Good vibes to you.
Blackouts are the worst, i’ve had many even without the drugs.
Yea I honestly think it was one thi g that made me psychotic in the first place. Maybe microdoses can help tho? Something to be researched for me. 
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This is what I do.
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I dont get why people say weed helps with anxiety the only time i ever had anxiety was from weed and also panic attacks
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I second this! I make art regularly and it has been so much better for my mental health!
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Please share some!
I’ll try! My health has been rough for a few weeks.
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