Just like most of you guys, my psychosis started extremely suddenly and within a week, i did a 180 and my parents noticed very quickly. Talking funny, acting funny. Anyways, they call the police and they come and pick me up and take me to the hospital. i run away from the hospital and end up in this womans (in her 30s) house hallucinating.
Get taken to court where I declare my name is “Michael Schumacher” (f1 legend)
so then I get ordered to a hospital. refusing all food and medications because the voices were telling me it was poisoned.
My parents come to see me, and my father was the one who convinced me to take the medications, and in a few days I had been discharged and bailed out as I have no priors.
I’d like to say that in this week, I went from 175 pounds to 145 ish. I’m 6’2, so imagine that.
Put on risperidone (from 1 to 4 mg) for the next few months and that was the worst time of my life. I had a court ordered curfew of 10 pm but didn’t even want to leave the house during the day, so it could have been house arrest, it would have barely made a difference.
had a marijuana problem too, so i decided to stop the meds and go back on my greens. no job, received disability soon after.
i can quit the marijuana, but i’d rather live life without medications.
they just change me… any anti psychotic, makes me feel weird. i was a highly energetic kid all my life, and still am.
outside of the psychosis where i experience every symptom, (amazing hallucinations and delusions) now I just hear voices, paranoia, and suicidal thoughts about every hour.
don’t want the doc to find my “cocktail” of pills. just like i don’t want to depend on marijuana i won’t depend on this medication.
i guess you could say i’ve gotten used to it. just need to accept that this is one of my struggles in life?
how do you guys cope? and your views on medications?